# I just want to write tonight…

- Link: https://write-stuff-4u2c.com/i-just-want-to-write-tonight/
- Published: 2024-12-23T22:40:56-05:00
- Author: Heidi Dare Turner Jenkins

So many mixed emotions tonight. Joy, sadness and maybe some hope. Mainly doubt. 
If I lay down all my doubt, I wonder how far it would stretch? Inside I scream. 
Living in this chaotic world has been incredibly difficult. Dealing with turmoil
is the hardest challenge in life. So, I answer prompts all day.  I hope to forget
my sadness, my lonely life that’s filled with joy at times. Have you ever ridden
an amusement park ride, and you want to stop it? The ride wasn’t what you expected.
Life can feel like that at times. All your memories seem like obligations. Something
you have to endure. That’s how I’ve felt most of my life. I go through the motions.
Every day I do the work. I punch in my time clock to start my shift. I continue 
working until my head hits the pillow. As a caregiver, you would think that’s what
I mean. I am a caregiver who cares with honor. This other life goes back years before.
I don’t know any different. Also, I can’t say when it began either. I really don’t
know. The year I was born, maybe?

1974 is the year of my birth. What was going on that year?

[https://takemeback.to/events/date/1974](https://takemeback.to/events/date/1974)

Especially in June on the 23, 1974, my birthday!

**First Extraterrestrial Message Transmission**: Humanity achieved a significant
milestone in space communication by sending the first intentional extraterrestrial
message from Earth into outer space, marking a pivotal moment in interstellar communication
efforts.

No wonder E.T. is one of my favorite movies. (Google it)

Until Next Time,

Heidi💜

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