I said what I said,clearly.

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I normally feel the urgency to do things.  I am either, overwhelmed, too tired, behind time, or obviously, no choice but the do the thing kind of situation. Its not laziness, although I feel like a sloth when it comes to doing things. Mostly, everything seems as if it were a chore or obligation of some sort. Of course there are a few exceptions when I enjoy the thing I do. Like writing on my blog. I want to do that. Its some kind of energy source, a satisfaction and an accomplishing feeling sort of thing.

Life can get in the way. Like when I am inspired to write, the phone will ring,  someone needs help, or chores flash before my face. Then the situation becomes dire it seems. A work before play kind of thing. If I were to write about a chapter in my life and label it “the hard years” I would say it was more of an age of seven years old. That was the age I became aware of the complexity of life. Then I would say, any age I have been since the day I turned seven has been “hard years”. The older I get I can see that life is a series of problems that need to be solved. On the negative side, you will be constantly achieving goals to be successful. On the positive side, achieving these goals will be worth it.

Please dont believe I am negative. Believe that I try to aim for a positive side to every story. Well, not everyone’s story. I am not gullible. I have a positive perspective of my own story. Not that its always good but because my story is mine. If I don’t believe in myself then who will? At least that is what I tell myself when I have had enough of being hard on myself. God does not like self pity.